不热爱生命？

我是不是一个不热爱，不珍惜生命的人？

每天熬夜，尽吃些垃圾食物，健康常识，一概不知。
生病了，也很不愿意看医生，等它自己好。

做事很不负责任，也很自私。
只要没烧到我这里，一切与我无关。
常常缩头缩尾地。
遇到麻烦就关起门窗，设法盖过它。
没法解决？等它爆。
做任何事都没尽全力，得过且过就好。

我，是不是很失败？

currently

CURRENTLY, I have my traninig in SHIN YANG. Left one more week, I'll officially annouce to all people that I had suffered for 1 MONTH!!
Every single days, I look at my watch and calender. Count the times and days frequently.
I snaked and day dreaming during working hours. I even think so many excuses to take leave and is in the progress.

Luckily I have 2 seniors there. They are quite funny. They talk about their fake love affair all the time. I ever thought some of the stories are true, so stupid.
They are very nice and so helpful. They invite me to go to pizza hut to celebrate that we had worked for 1 month but still in planning.

This year is not my year. I can't reach my expectation even I work so hard and even fall sick so many times. I hope next year which is my zodiac year can bring me luck. yeah, I want to buy TOTO next year.

Chinese New Year is around the corner, Boulevard is preparing for it now. Both my wicked sisters had got their new year attires--go hell. I feel so lazy to shop for my new year clothes.

Last week, I told my sister to buy Ninja Assasin or Saw but she refused and buy Carrier which is the most bored movie I ever watched--go hell.
Actually yesterday my sister and I should go to massage but her aunty visit came at the wrong time. So we decided to delay it to next week which is this week. THIS TIME MUST GO!!

我终于自由啦！！

考咗咁多日既试，我要话比全世界听，我自由啦！！

开心d日子就系咁短，下個礼拜又要开始做野。 我條命好辛苦啊！！

我妈成日话，要锁住個门口，如果夜返来既话，就要唔史入屋。但是，层晚既然無锁。突然之间觉地我妈好鬼感性。呢幾日仲买咗几粒苹果比我。我仲话我唔食indomie，要maggie 既assam laksa。今日，她就买咗五包比我。好开心XD

记得，上一次，我写广东文既blog系上一年。
当大家又見到呢篇广东文既blog，就知我又系幾咁無聊啦，比下面啦，無笑啦。

Cannon in D

The rythm which I love the most most... in my life.
I put it as the alarm for my phone, so that I can wake up by listening that rythm.
I also put it as my ringtone, so that I can love all the people who called me. ^^
No matter what version...
I like it the most.

Classical version:


Rock version:


Remixed version:


piano version:

Different perspective

Last time when I tidy up my room, I teared off the the mosquito-net from the frame of the window. I did it due to the clealiness and it is "out of service" because holes all over the nets. The original look should be like this:


After the net teared off:



Obviously looks more tidy and clean.lol...
My mom only realized the nets kena teared after weeks even though she entered my room so many times before realizing it.

Then she shout:

mom: AI SI AH??!! hi leh bang ki kolo liao?? (in hokkien)
要死啊？ 那个网去哪里了？
Want die ah? where did the net go?

me: “非常亲切的笑容” 不知道。(in Chinese)
*with a big smile* dunno??

mom: Ha mang kio lu bang lo lai?? ka dan lu bun bang chua si ah!!!
谁叫你把网拔下来？等下你被蚊子叮死啊！！
Who ask you to teared it off? later you will bite by the mosquito till death!!

me: 那张网到处都是洞，有没有在都没分别。
There were holes all over the nets. There is no different whether it exist or not.

mom: bo yiong eh zeh sei kia, ho eh mi kia tio tim tiao. bo yong eh ah siu ka kui chu!!
这个小孩子没有用地，有用的东西就丢掉，没有用的东西就收到整屋子。
This kid no use one, throw away all the useful things and keep the rubbish all over the house


When my aunt comes:

Aunt: why you didn't open the windows? so hot!! (in chinese)

me: *open window*

Aunt: ee? No net?

me: *smile again*

Aunt: It's a good idea to tear it off!! Very innovative!!

Oh well.... different people different perspective. What do you think? An innovative person? or boh yiong eh sei kia? haha....

shopping list

Things that I want to buy or change soon:

1. shoes
2. trousers
3. T-shirt
4. bag
5. wallet
6. jacket
7. watch
8. laptop

KFC

今天，刚睡醒的我饿得像只狼。

上了一下下的网，就骑着我的老铁马，到老街那边吃KFC。

一进去，很少人，感觉还不错，我讨厌多人的餐厅。

叫了我最爱的snack plate，选了风水位，洗了手，坐了下来，就用餐。

坐在我背后的两个小弟弟，不断述说着自己打机的威水史。

一个似乎有轻微弱智的员工，努力的工作，让别人认同自己。

一个戴墨镜很酷的uncle，走进来时，给予该员工一个亲切的微笑。

一个女孩，叫了一杯水，很勤劳的在读书。

一个妇女，叫了儿童套餐，不断的传简讯。

一个爸爸，带着他的女儿，两个很幸福的样子在用餐。

看来，今天的KFC，很不一样呢。

我想，我爱上它了，怎么办？

不正常的一家人

曾经，我非常恨我妈怎么这么不懂得照顾及教育自己的孩子（从没想过自己是那么的早熟）。明明小的时候，大家都非常优秀，（或许，除了我吧）怎么长大了之后，总是吊车尾地。

长大了之后，思想成熟了，我开始发觉，我妈自己也都在一个非常封闭而且不正常的家庭长大，受的教育也不多，根本就不能期待她能像一般人那样，可以很正常的带大自己的孩子，只要她还在乎我们，那就够了。（如果你仔细的观察我妈，你就会发现她和其他的母亲真的很不一样，没骗你的）

我爱吃苹果但讨厌梨，我妈却不喜欢买苹果，反而喜欢买梨，并且硬逼我吃，我发誓她真的知道我喜欢苹果。别人的妈妈都鼓励自己的孩子参加课外活动，我妈希望这些无谓的能免则免。我要打球，她叫我要运动就在自己的家跑几圈，要不然就去屋外跑。别人的妈妈都会把家里打扫的干干净净，她却是家里最主要的垃圾制造者，试过稍微收拾，guess what？都被狠狠的修理一顿，因为收拾了，她找不到她要的东西，而且也把她所谓“有用”的东西丢了（根本就是你我都会百分百认为该丢的垃圾）。我姑姑还告诉过我，我妈在我们小的时候，喜欢乘我们上学的时候，把奇奇怪怪的符藏在我们的书架或是书里。

算了算，我从来都不期待她会变成正常人。既然我是受了教育的人，很多从我妈传下来错误的观念，都要在我这一代结束，我不打算改变我妈，至少，不要再让那些错误的观念，“荼毒”我们的下一代。（哈哈，好向很伟大的感觉）。因此，我开始收拾我的房间，很无奈地，我妹得到我妈的真传，房间怎么收都收不干净，但，我还是尽我的能力清理我的房间。不但如此，我还尽力的打扫和我有密切关系的地方和物品。比如，小蓝，楼梯，走廊，等等。其他的，就算了，嫌骂的少mei？至于信仰，除了拜祖先，还有偶尔到庙里拜拜以外，其他的，免了。

虽然我妈很不正常，但至少，她的不正常，很多时候都是为了我们好，只是，用错方法了，所以没有人领情，很不好的行为，因为真的很顶不顺。在此，还真的要请母亲大人多多包涵我迟来的叛逆期。

最近比较烦，比较烦，比较烦～

最近很烦燥，一起床，脾气都不好，超级气的，又不敢出去，怕没时间读书。
最近常下雨，想出去走走也不行，要不然每次都在半途中变成落汤鸡，又是湿淋淋的回家。
晚上想出去，又没地方去，也超危险的，而且晚风也很冷，吹得我发抖。
想看漫画，又怕漫画瘾发作，一看就要把整橱的漫画看完才罢休。
每一次读书，都读得很累，累了又不知道要干什么。

真的很烦，烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦..............

无言的结局

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What happened today?

Dear diary,

Today is my birthday, I woke up quite early today. It's around 11 am. After tidy up myself, I went out with my dearest bike.

First, I went to eat my favorite food, laksa. Actually, it isn't a right time for me to appear there because it's luch hour, so too many people squeeze into the cafe and I can't get any newspaper to read. So, I left once finish my food.

Then, while riding my bike,so suddenly, that I had made a wish, to watch 2 movies today. It's kind a waste, isn't it? Since normally we have only 3 wishes for birthday. Oh well, I don't want to make my life so complicated, simple suites me. I'm not going to tell all my wishes here although all of them are ordinary and simple. So, back to the movies. Both of them are quite new. The first movie is Surrogates. It is somehow disappointed me. I expect there would be alot of massive scene but not much of them. The second movie is Pandorum, it released today. I thought it is a horror movie but more to adventurous and science fiction. But both of them is above average for me, quite satisfied.

After that, I ever think of playing bowling. But it's quite late already. So, I went home, prepare for the dinner tonight. What very funny is, I was so insist to require crabs should appear on the table for dinner, and my sis was like =_=!!! lol...

Somehow, my behaviours made my friends worried. But that is my habit, I guess if you get used of it, you will understand. And, you know, I'm very busy, from what I stated above there. So, it isn't a right time to text me, very sorry for my irresponsive.

p/s My sis showed me that she wear B cup bra for dinner tonight. ^^

Greetings

Sometimes, I'm enjoy to ss especially when I am happy.

When I come back home the first thing I do is say "halo!!" to everyone in my sight including animals.

I used to greet the dogs, they always knew it, so each time I greet to them, they would swing their tail .

Besides dogs, I like to say hi miao mi to stray cats, fei hong and samseng. Sometimes they are like knowing I'm greeting to them and say meow to greet me too.

The funniest thing is I always shout " 嗨，大家好，我回来了!!!" to everyone once I step in the house, and acts like they are very excited to see me back, but in fact, they always ignore me and give me expression of =_=

自我介绍

姓名：林淑娟

星座：天枰座

排行：第二

血型：A

身高：152cm

体重：45kg

绰号：kian，kian mui，娟妹，老二，红苹果，strawberry，stacey

优点：有礼让的精神，幽默

缺点：懒惰，伤别人的心，浪子一个，不良少女，离家出走的人

喜爱的食物：海鲜，寿司，laksa，kfc，等等

喜爱的饮料：limau peng

喜爱的运动：篮球，排球，羽球，保龄球，游泳，爬山，跑步，等等

喜爱的活动：看漫画，打电动，上网，睡觉，漫无目的得到处晃，发白日梦，看电影

喜欢的水果：苹果，葡萄

喜欢的事：看我妹跳脱衣舞，和朋友到处晃

讨厌的食物：内脏，辣椒，零食，等等

讨厌的饮料：薏米，咖啡

讨厌的水果：梨，黄梨

讨厌的事：弄坏我的漫画，被骗，占我便宜

不爽的事：摸我的主机，推我的桌子，弄脏我刚清理的地方，在我做功课时一直盯着我

讨厌的事：驾车

When I was small, I have a dream

When I was a child, I dreamed to be a scientist. Everyday, I tracked the small insects (ants, caterpillar, spider, grasshopper, dragonfly...) and observed their daily activities. On the other hand, I also liked to broke down the small devices to see how it function. Actually what I have done were stupid acts. I don't know why, maybe I am started to grow up, and realised it is kind a difficult for someone who are brainless like me to be a scientist. Then, it fades...

When I was a primary kid, I dreamed to be a doctor. I thought doctors can earn so much and it can make me looks "yeng" too. So I started to learn the ways to treat the wounds and pay attention to what related to doctor. After I grew older, I realised it is just a high standard blue collar job, which means, it cannot make me alot of money and it is a tough job. Besides, I would need to spent alot of money, time and efforts on it. Oh no, no no no, I am too lazy and lack of intelligence to do it. So, it is terminated...

Comes to the teenage, I dreamed to be a pharmacist. I always failed my biology in my semester test and only a pass for my SPM. But I don't want to give up so fast. So I decided to go for bio stream in STPM. The Bio class didn't even start, I changed my mind, and switched to physics stream. I also can't believe myself by being so random like this. Well, teenagers... just because we know nothing, so we dare to do any kind of "creative" and dangerous decisions. I switched to physics stream because I heard bio stream is too tough and had a lot of works to do. People who is lazy like me cannot survive in bio stream, so, I abandoned it...

Here comes to present, I am now aim to be an engineer. Before I came to Curtin, I know nothing about it at all. I choosed engineering course because everyone said it is suitable to me and can make me alot of $$. Besides, I prefer study science compared to commerce. Then, here I am. What I found something interesting is, most of the inventors I admired when I was a child are actually engineers. Quite suprise that my present ambition is very near to my chilhood dream. I really enjoy studying engineering especially chemical engineering because it can make me alot of $$$, so that I can "eat gao gao" and "play gao gao" at the future. Looking forward it...

普通的 VS 真正的

An email which I received:

一個普通的朋友從未看過你哭泣。

一個真正的朋友有雙肩讓你的淚水濕盡。

一個普通的朋友不知道你父母的姓氏。

一個真正的朋友有他們的電話在通訊錄上。

一個普通的朋友會帶瓶葡萄酒參加你的派對。

一個真正的朋友會早點來幫你準備並且為了幫你打掃而晚點走。

一個普通的朋友討厭你在他睡了後打來。

一個真正的朋友會問為什麼現在才打來。

一個普通的朋友找你談論你的困擾。

一個真正的朋友找你解決你的困擾。

一個普通的朋友對你的羅曼史感到好奇。

一個真正的朋友可以威脅你說出來。

一個普通的朋友在拜訪時，像一個客人一樣。

一個真正的朋友會打開冰箱自己拿東西。

一個普通的朋友在吵架後就認為友誼已經結束。

一個真正的朋友明白當你們還沒打過架就不叫真正的友誼。

一個普通的朋友期望你永遠在他身邊陪他。

一個真正的朋友期望他能永遠陪在你?

**Obviously, I'm a true friend, haha...**

起雾的日子

今天，天空很蓝，蓝的让人头痛。我的心情并没有因此晴朗，反而，蒙上一层层的雾。
打了几十通的电话寻找internship，一通都没有消息。算了，不打算在为它继续沮丧。反正，今年不行，明年再来。我相信老天爷是公平地，机会一定是躲在某个角落等着我，只是我还没找到它而已。
吃了一条choki choki，企图让自己的大脑释放一些胺多酚，让心情好一些。但，它的巧克力成分似乎不够，并没有多大的帮助。望着电脑荧幕，我又开始进行我的嗜好--发呆。
回想起以前，我是多么的佩服自己，不管遇到什么不开心的事情，我都能非常潇洒的放得一干二净。我的胸前可是时时刻刻都挂着“地球不会因为我而停止自转，我也不会因为这样而停下脚步，没什么事情是我放不下。”我从来都不为任何事感到难过，班上的同学也因此认为我超酷地。
随着年龄的增长，思想成熟了，拥有的也越来越多。很多事情都变得不简单，不能说放就放。朋友多了，肩膀多了，我靠惯了。我开始不舍得放，放了，我会难过。朋友不开心，我也好不了那里去，每做一件事情，诺没肩膀让我靠，我会开始觉得被压得透不过气来，也很寂寞。昔日的潇洒已不再出现。
是我软弱了？我没法衡量...

××掴自己俩巴掌，不要再胡思乱想了，是时候做assignment了！！

personality on 15th octorber 1986

I'm too bored till checking my own personality on my birthday...

你 的 个 性
　　 顽 固 ， 但 自 己 并 不 认 为 如 此 　　

沉 着 ， 做 事 洗 ， 意 至 坚 定 ， 慎 重 ， 温 和 　　

很 少 动 ， 很 少 说 话 ， 大 都 静 静 做 着 听 人 讲 或 观 察 别 人 　　

脑 子 计 算 速 度 很 快 ， 但 下 一 步 的 行 动 很 慢

Do you agree?

Easy life

Today, I went to cinema watch two movies in a row. The first movie is G.I Joe. It is not really an action movie but high technology weapons in this movie. I was amazed by their suite. And I found an interesting line, "They are not Joe, they are jokes!!" The second movie is the latest movie which is Final Destination 4. In my own view, the most interesting death is the main character's girl friend blended by the bared machine of escalator.

After that, I went to book store for reading. I read a book about a writer writes his own son's story. The writer is really open minded and patient in educate his son. No matter how worst of the behaviour of his son in school, he still respect and believe in his son. What a great father.... And in his son's eyes, he is a great father and always listen to him. Inside the book I found a funny conversation:

父亲：你觉得安琪的身材怎么样？
儿子：卡在中间。
父亲：??
儿子：就不高，不矮，不肥，不瘦也不苗条。
父亲：........

Haha... At first I thought the girl is fat until stuck at somewhere else.

HATE!!!

I hate being stress, I hate being cheated, I hate assignments, I hate exams, I hate barley, I hate coffee, I hate pigeons, ...

惨！我忘了

突然，我心血来潮的拿起笔，想写几颗方块字，简单的几颗，我竟然忘了怎么写。学了14年的华语，我就这样“光光荣荣”的还给了老师。没法子，华语一向都不是我的强项。虽说，就读华小的我，英语基础打的不好，但，我以曾经学习过华语为荣，毕竟这可不是人人都有机会的喔。废话少说，继续写我的方块字。。。

我不是圣人

我是个小小人物
生活在小小世界
期待小小的幸运

尼尔我诈
请你离我远点
我受不了

天真无知
快给我消失
你会害了我

互相猜疑
不要找我
我没这专长

请给我透气的空间
我只想要平凡
因为
我不是圣人

First time

In this semester, I had experienced alot of my great first time. Sweet, bitter, each of them coloured my life perfectly.

Thanks to my friends for bringing me so many places and tell me so many things which I never know. I always thought no ones will know Miri better than me but I'm wrong. Just because I'm born and grew up in Miri, I feel everything is ordinary to me and never think to "waste" my time to try it out. Each time they bring me out, I always found that everything is very new to me. What a shame to tell you that I had tried my first japanese and korean food in this semester.lol...

I think the most interesting part of eating Korean food is you need to wrap the meats and other stuff in a piece of cabbage like vege. When Jess and Julia told me this, I was like "Are you guys serious?, Are we really going to eat in this way?" Jess even asked me,"You never watch korean drama meh? Actors in Korean drama always eat in this way." I swear I ever watch Korean drama but I really never saw they eat like this. As for Japanese food, the foods are nothing new to me, only the scenery of the restaurant is a little bit different from what I expected.

Hmm... Not only foods. I went to XXX and even xxxxk. Thanks to everyone who take care me while I xxxxk. I know it is very troublesome. But at least now I know how it goes and where is my limit. I promise it would not happen again.lol... it scare me too.

What would be left if I discarded comics from my life?

Last weekend, my aunts made a delicious pizza and called all of us to enjoy it. Although I don't really like to go to my aunt's house but I still did it because I can't resist the pizza. Unlike the pizzas in pizza hut, the pizza hut's one always has a thick bread at the bottom and cover alot of cheeze with a little "eatable" things. I guess the actual value of the pizza is far cheaper than the menu. But the pizzas made by my aunt are totally opposite with the pizza hut's one, I'm lovin it!

Hey! pizza is not the point I want to talk about. It's my comic!
After we enjoyed the pizza, my youngest aunt started to throw the dynamite everywhere. She scolded me about my comics. What the... I read comics for more than 10 years. It's not only a habit to me, it is a part of my life. It is impossible for me to get rid of it. After the explosion, we all half dead. Then, went home to do some first aid.

At night, I stared at my comics and think... what would be left if I discarded comics from my life? (hmm... I also feel that I think too much especially at this exam period. lol...)
The answer is nothing left. About 8/10 of my life are comics. I never want to get rid of it. DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!! Sometimes it provide useful knowledge too and some very lame jokes. Haha.... really lame, I can't stand with it.

Back to the explosion, my youngest aunt told me that my uncle's wife wants to vomit when she saw our room. =_=!!! I know my room is very messy these days. Please be consideration. I don't even have time to sleep. Well, well, well, I better continue my study. I know Ah peng is free now but I still have one more to go. gambate!! everyone.

LMAO!!!

OMG!!! Wat a stupid bird and golfer. I bet this is the lamest death among the bird!

Stress... really stress... seriously stress

I miss my holiday life very much. Everyday sleeping, eating and reading. Sometimes went for jogging and swimming. Looks very simple but enjoy it very much. But now, I barely have mood to go jogging or swimming.

I always wonder IF I had less assignment, IF there were no exams, and IF I had more times... Then I can always do what I want to do.

My friends always said Im very lame because I always scolded by my sisters. It is not the problem that I am weak but I don't want to argue with them like a stupid. Only stupids will argue with each other and the wise will always hold their fire to solve the dilemma instead of arguing. Thats why I always avoid to argue with others. I'll always wait until they cool down before discussing.

Suddenly feels that I very smart? Hmm... you will discover more if you knew more about me.

Curtin Open day is just around the corner, actually I plan not to attend this event. Each time I imagined the heat, crowded there, stuffy, I am suffocate. But since my friend insist to give me coupon so I have to go. Well, hope things are different with friends there. lol...

busy time coming soon

Unbelievable things had happened on me these days. All of them came in a sudden.

Suddenly, I became a "committee member" of ping pong club since I thought I'm an ordinary member.

Suddenly, I got involved in IEM and need to help my friend to organise a competition.

Although came in a sudden, I'll still look forward for my busiest sem ever.

Enjoy my uni life? I guess?!

What a challenge...

Old folks these days...

I was planned to swimming at this afternoon. But due to my laziness to wash the swimming suits, I decided to go for jogging. Once I reached Bulatan Park, I saw all the old folks holding an umbrella while jogging. Looks like jogging with an umbrella has become a trend. Luckily there were youngsters like me jogging with empty hands, otherewise I'll be an alien at the scene.

Just a few minutes before I went home, it started to drizzle. All the old folks opened their umbrella and I was totally speechless. Well, actually this is what we called old folk's wisdom. It is the wisdom that the youngsters never want to learn.

Many of us often look down on the old folk's stamina. You will know that you are wrong when you saw how the old folks 'exercise', especially when you go for jungle trekking at Canada hill. In my opinion, it is more suitable to call 'jungle jogging' for the old folks. You can't imagine how they run in the jungle. I actually felt quite embarassed when saw the old folks overtake me and disappeared just in seconds. I still remembered the my first time jungle trekking with my sisters at Canada hill, we did not know the right tracks. So we decided to follow at the back of an old man and his daughter. Just like what I mentioned, they disappeared in seconds and we had spend more than an hour to find the track out ( normal time will be 20~30min). My friend, who had similar experience, told me he met an aunty with a leg a little difficulties said"年轻人，第一次啊?". He felt so embarassed because even an aunty got a little "bai ka" also can walk faster than him.
Old folks these days... sigh... really geng ah!! Do not look down on them or you will regret.