金典回顾

最近，我迷上了林青霞的电影。我不断的搜寻她演过的电影，结果越看越过瘾，几乎把她的武打片都看的七七八八了，但我对她的爱情片倒是没兴趣。
武打片里的林青霞往往都能把角色演的很传神，该妖艳时，她比任何的女人还销魂，该有霸气时，她比任何的男人还要男人，是一个不管男人还是女人都会爱上的一个人。最具代表性的电影，莫过于笑傲江湖之东方不败风云再起，我可是看了至少三篇哪！！
哈哈，今晚肯定又要看她的电影了。。。

holiday

Finally!! the holiday start. This is the last holiday before I graduate, feel sooo.... reluctant. I went to Kuching last week. Oh well... nothing special there, as expected, if you insist, that would be Bako national park. OMG... the so called "waterfall" is like water fall from the water tap, really "WTF!!" we spend around 2 and half hour for trekking just to see the "water fall" from the water tap. Besides, the water is soo dirty that we can't even dare to wash our feet with the water, shit!!
Oh ya... I must mention about the famous bee hoon belacan. I almost vomit out the food I ate when I smelled it, too disgusting for me.
So far, I haven't plan for my holiday. These days, I grabbed my bro's PC to play game and force him to go sleeping or study. LOL... Looks bad but actually my intention is good, or else, he wouldn't think of study and I was too bored till I don't feel like online. In previous days, I was busy going out enjoy and seldom do my own businees. Now really need settle them, a huge "debt" for me but I feel very lazy to going out. sigh...
To all my friend: happy holiday!!

改变

最近，我感觉到我的生活起了很大的变化。我开始对生活有了新的诠释，也许是因为我爱看书的关系吧，看到很有意思的文章，让我开窍了很多。
我发觉我成熟了，开始懂得要对自己的生命负责任。别人不关心你，你就要好好疼自己，不要让自己受委屈。不开心了，就要想办法逗自己开心，不要让别人左右自己的情绪。尽量培养良好的习惯，让自己活得更有尊严。
我知道我的家庭给不到我需要的。但，我已经长大了，生命不再是我父母亲的责任，而是我自己的。记得有那么一句话“小的时候，你的错都是父母的责任。长大的时候，你的错都是你自己的责任。” 但很遗憾地说，我做不到我家庭对我的期待，或许这是我的缺陷，我弥补不了，请原谅我。
其实我也知道自己不断的在改变，每当有聚会时，以前的朋友总是对我的改变大吃一惊。没办法啊，社会不断的在淘汰跟不上脚步的人，我能那么单调吗？哈哈。。。开玩笑的 ：P 人成熟了，自然就会改变了，没必要特地伪装自己。
很快地，要毕业了 T_T ，超不舍得地，但为了我的“钱途”，还是毕业吧。。。没必要跟钱过不去。哈哈。。。 我承认我还是蛮现实地。（oops，被你们发现了）

lame club shirts

Feel free to leave any comments. These are not the final design. I might upload more if I able to design more.

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Somehow, I had gone wrong...

These days, so much of undesired matters happened in a blow.

Somehow, it made me went wrong... Almost...

Frustated.................

梦想

梦想，是不是因为遥不可及，才叫做“梦想”？
最近，我不断的想起深埋在心中的梦想。
我很想一一去实现它们，但，很无奈地，我背了太多的包袱。
诺不顾一切的去追求它们，我将要付出很大的代价。
就因为太了解自己的梦想，所以才显得那么的遥远。

我不但背了太多的包袱，还很懦弱，超没用地。
很多时候，遇到难题，都没能力去解决它。
长了那么大，都没有认真的思考自己的梦想。
这些日子，我真的是虚度了。

记得小时候，民都鲁来了一艘传道的邮轮，邮轮上有很多来自各国的自愿工作者随着邮轮漂泊。
就在那时，我的三姑就说了一句我忘不了的话：如果我年轻十岁，我一定也会参与他们。
我真的不希望，以后的我，也对我的侄女说同样的废话。
要么，就说"我曾经。。。"

最近
我深深的感觉到。。。
自己心中的梦想，渐渐的发芽了。
我在也按捺不住了！！

老天，给我勇气就好，
难题，留给我自己去解决吧！！

Somehow, I feel bored

Finally, this is it, free week!!
But I feel really bored. I had finished 1 drama in 3 days.
Actually I got a lot of things to do, but I AM LAZY.....
AAAHHH.......... WAT SHOULD I DO????

回我妈的娘家

一直以来，我都把去纳闽视为一件苦差。没办法，四面都是水，从飞机上望下去，一眼就看完了，非常的小。我又没车，那里又没电影院，商店的店面也小的可怜，跟本没得晃。

这次为了避难，又山长水远的去了一趟纳闽。我妈也不知何时变得这么有冒险精神，有飞机不坐。先是搭了两小时车到汶莱，接着等了四个钟头多，然后坐了一个半小时的快艇才到纳闽，结果我晕船了，一上岸就吐。各位，其实算到来，跟机票差不多，千万不要干傻事，弄得自己晕车又晕船。

这次回去，多事情都已改投画面。。。

先是我的阿公，高大的他竟然病得像非洲难民一样，除了上厕所，其余的时间都躺在床或懒椅上。也许是病了的关系，竟然看见我的阿姨们包括我妈和阿公谈天。我从来都没看过阿公和家里任何人说过话，就算有也是一两句而已。顺便一提，我阿公现在追着意难忘这部台语戏，还告诉我妈这部戏的剧情。

然后是我的舅舅，回去了那么多次，都看不到他出现在我面前超过一分钟。很难想象大家住在同一屋檐下，却没见面的那种情形吧。这次回去，他竟然会和我妈坐在一起吃饭，还聊天咧，也和我说了一些无关痛痒的话，真是奇迹。

接下来是我的表弟，他哦，十四岁了，变了声，还像个三岁小孩子。第一次见到他就见识了他的肮脏。那晚，他是刚从舞狮表演回来，脱了鞋和袜子，就走进房间。他的脚可是臭得可以杀死蟑螂，夸张到他走过的痕迹还残留着那股味道。我阿姨还告诉我，他昨晚表演回来没冲凉呢！！虽说，他才发育，思想不成熟，但不至于什么叫肮脏都不知道吧？真是的，连上个厕所也不关门，不拉水。他在家的时候一直盯着我的psp，算了，反正我回家也可以玩，就让他吧。

除此之外，我竟然看见了从来没见过的舅舅（另一个）。我每次问我妈到底她有多少个兄弟姐妹，她从来都没说出一个确实的数目。所以，时常会无缘无故冒出一个舅舅的感觉。那位舅舅竟然娶了和我妹年龄一样大的老婆。我阿姨们可是当没有这位嫂嫂的。

这次回去，我总算见识了福建人最传统的习俗--拜天公。还蛮讲究地。

虽然这次回去还蛮无聊地，但很吃惊他们的改变，变得比较像个家，希望他们每一个都可以平平安安的过日子。

Stories in Shin Yang

Well... As you know, I'm doing my training in Shin Yang now. I'm going to tell what I had experienced in it.

First, my two seniors.
They are such a 38 person. Who take leave, when they take leave, the reasons they take leave (for marriage, balik kampung, for birthday....). Asked the seniors, they sure know the details. Besides that, who has boyfriend/girlfriend, who is married, who is single. They knew it.

For convenient to talk others affairs behind them, we gave them nicknames. Our manager is Ah Zhong, because he has Aron kwok's ealier ages hairstyle and give us a feel of onion. Then the supervisors... Su is Stress, because we always feels stress from her and her name has a "s" which has 3 in "stress". Yong is Nelson 2, they said he looks alike with Nelson. So he is no.2. Bel is "piao ge" or "Bel go". Sharizan will be the "tall man" (I believe you know why). And the newcomer, called baby, because she has baby face, very dependent to her parents and has "B" in her name.

Every Tuesday and Thursday is the day which we suffered the most because there is meeting. We need to tell our progress and what we had done. Tuesday sometimes are OK. The problem is Thursday, there are only two days between the meetings which sometimes not enough for us to do something else. So? we had nothing to tell during the meeting. That is the dilemma. We'll need to make some stories but it should be "true stories". How can we find that much of "true stories", in fact, we didn't do anything.

Ah Zhong is a very great person. He only brings a kettle of coffee and a cup during meeting. By just listening to your "full of chemical terms" speech, he knows what you are talking about. Don't ever try to fool him by speaking fast. He knows everything. I dare to say that he is the only one who know what you are talking about during meeting. Everyone wouldn't knew it.

My seniors like to whispering and talk fast. I seldom catch them and always coincidently ask "wat? wat? wat is it?" after they finished the stories, then, of course, they beh tahan me. So, they always let me sit between them to for my sake.

There were alot of stories I haven't tell. I don't think I can finish it here. lol...
I'm very glad to do my training with my seniors. They really help me alot and fun to be with them too. Thanks to them!!

不热爱生命？

我是不是一个不热爱，不珍惜生命的人？

每天熬夜，尽吃些垃圾食物，健康常识，一概不知。
生病了，也很不愿意看医生，等它自己好。

做事很不负责任，也很自私。
只要没烧到我这里，一切与我无关。
常常缩头缩尾地。
遇到麻烦就关起门窗，设法盖过它。
没法解决？等它爆。
做任何事都没尽全力，得过且过就好。

我，是不是很失败？

currently

CURRENTLY, I have my traninig in SHIN YANG. Left one more week, I'll officially annouce to all people that I had suffered for 1 MONTH!!
Every single days, I look at my watch and calender. Count the times and days frequently.
I snaked and day dreaming during working hours. I even think so many excuses to take leave and is in the progress.

Luckily I have 2 seniors there. They are quite funny. They talk about their fake love affair all the time. I ever thought some of the stories are true, so stupid.
They are very nice and so helpful. They invite me to go to pizza hut to celebrate that we had worked for 1 month but still in planning.

This year is not my year. I can't reach my expectation even I work so hard and even fall sick so many times. I hope next year which is my zodiac year can bring me luck. yeah, I want to buy TOTO next year.

Chinese New Year is around the corner, Boulevard is preparing for it now. Both my wicked sisters had got their new year attires--go hell. I feel so lazy to shop for my new year clothes.

Last week, I told my sister to buy Ninja Assasin or Saw but she refused and buy Carrier which is the most bored movie I ever watched--go hell.
Actually yesterday my sister and I should go to massage but her aunty visit came at the wrong time. So we decided to delay it to next week which is this week. THIS TIME MUST GO!!

我终于自由啦！！

考咗咁多日既试，我要话比全世界听，我自由啦！！

开心d日子就系咁短，下個礼拜又要开始做野。 我條命好辛苦啊！！

我妈成日话，要锁住個门口，如果夜返来既话，就要唔史入屋。但是，层晚既然無锁。突然之间觉地我妈好鬼感性。呢幾日仲买咗几粒苹果比我。我仲话我唔食indomie，要maggie 既assam laksa。今日，她就买咗五包比我。好开心XD

记得，上一次，我写广东文既blog系上一年。
当大家又見到呢篇广东文既blog，就知我又系幾咁無聊啦，比下面啦，無笑啦。

Different perspective

Last time when I tidy up my room, I teared off the the mosquito-net from the frame of the window. I did it due to the clealiness and it is "out of service" because holes all over the nets. The original look should be like this:


After the net teared off:



Obviously looks more tidy and clean.lol...
My mom only realized the nets kena teared after weeks even though she entered my room so many times before realizing it.

Then she shout:

mom: AI SI AH??!! hi leh bang ki kolo liao?? (in hokkien)
要死啊？ 那个网去哪里了？
Want die ah? where did the net go?

me: “非常亲切的笑容” 不知道。(in Chinese)
*with a big smile* dunno??

mom: Ha mang kio lu bang lo lai?? ka dan lu bun bang chua si ah!!!
谁叫你把网拔下来？等下你被蚊子叮死啊！！
Who ask you to teared it off? later you will bite by the mosquito till death!!

me: 那张网到处都是洞，有没有在都没分别。
There were holes all over the nets. There is no different whether it exist or not.

mom: bo yiong eh zeh sei kia, ho eh mi kia tio tim tiao. bo yong eh ah siu ka kui chu!!
这个小孩子没有用地，有用的东西就丢掉，没有用的东西就收到整屋子。
This kid no use one, throw away all the useful things and keep the rubbish all over the house


When my aunt comes:

Aunt: why you didn't open the windows? so hot!! (in chinese)

me: *open window*

Aunt: ee? No net?

me: *smile again*

Aunt: It's a good idea to tear it off!! Very innovative!!

Oh well.... different people different perspective. What do you think? An innovative person? or boh yiong eh sei kia? haha....

shopping list

Things that I want to buy or change soon:

1. shoes
2. trousers
3. T-shirt
4. bag
5. wallet
6. jacket
7. watch
8. laptop

KFC

今天，刚睡醒的我饿得像只狼。

上了一下下的网，就骑着我的老铁马，到老街那边吃KFC。

一进去，很少人，感觉还不错，我讨厌多人的餐厅。

叫了我最爱的snack plate，选了风水位，洗了手，坐了下来，就用餐。

坐在我背后的两个小弟弟，不断述说着自己打机的威水史。

一个似乎有轻微弱智的员工，努力的工作，让别人认同自己。

一个戴墨镜很酷的uncle，走进来时，给予该员工一个亲切的微笑。

一个女孩，叫了一杯水，很勤劳的在读书。

一个妇女，叫了儿童套餐，不断的传简讯。

一个爸爸，带着他的女儿，两个很幸福的样子在用餐。

看来，今天的KFC，很不一样呢。

我想，我爱上它了，怎么办？

不正常的一家人

曾经，我非常恨我妈怎么这么不懂得照顾及教育自己的孩子（从没想过自己是那么的早熟）。明明小的时候，大家都非常优秀，（或许，除了我吧）怎么长大了之后，总是吊车尾地。

长大了之后，思想成熟了，我开始发觉，我妈自己也都在一个非常封闭而且不正常的家庭长大，受的教育也不多，根本就不能期待她能像一般人那样，可以很正常的带大自己的孩子，只要她还在乎我们，那就够了。（如果你仔细的观察我妈，你就会发现她和其他的母亲真的很不一样，没骗你的）

我爱吃苹果但讨厌梨，我妈却不喜欢买苹果，反而喜欢买梨，并且硬逼我吃，我发誓她真的知道我喜欢苹果。别人的妈妈都鼓励自己的孩子参加课外活动，我妈希望这些无谓的能免则免。我要打球，她叫我要运动就在自己的家跑几圈，要不然就去屋外跑。别人的妈妈都会把家里打扫的干干净净，她却是家里最主要的垃圾制造者，试过稍微收拾，guess what？都被狠狠的修理一顿，因为收拾了，她找不到她要的东西，而且也把她所谓“有用”的东西丢了（根本就是你我都会百分百认为该丢的垃圾）。我姑姑还告诉过我，我妈在我们小的时候，喜欢乘我们上学的时候，把奇奇怪怪的符藏在我们的书架或是书里。

算了算，我从来都不期待她会变成正常人。既然我是受了教育的人，很多从我妈传下来错误的观念，都要在我这一代结束，我不打算改变我妈，至少，不要再让那些错误的观念，“荼毒”我们的下一代。（哈哈，好向很伟大的感觉）。因此，我开始收拾我的房间，很无奈地，我妹得到我妈的真传，房间怎么收都收不干净，但，我还是尽我的能力清理我的房间。不但如此，我还尽力的打扫和我有密切关系的地方和物品。比如，小蓝，楼梯，走廊，等等。其他的，就算了，嫌骂的少mei？至于信仰，除了拜祖先，还有偶尔到庙里拜拜以外，其他的，免了。

虽然我妈很不正常，但至少，她的不正常，很多时候都是为了我们好，只是，用错方法了，所以没有人领情，很不好的行为，因为真的很顶不顺。在此，还真的要请母亲大人多多包涵我迟来的叛逆期。

最近比较烦，比较烦，比较烦～

最近很烦燥，一起床，脾气都不好，超级气的，又不敢出去，怕没时间读书。
最近常下雨，想出去走走也不行，要不然每次都在半途中变成落汤鸡，又是湿淋淋的回家。
晚上想出去，又没地方去，也超危险的，而且晚风也很冷，吹得我发抖。
想看漫画，又怕漫画瘾发作，一看就要把整橱的漫画看完才罢休。
每一次读书，都读得很累，累了又不知道要干什么。

真的很烦，烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦..............

What happened today?

Dear diary,

Today is my birthday, I woke up quite early today. It's around 11 am. After tidy up myself, I went out with my dearest bike.

First, I went to eat my favorite food, laksa. Actually, it isn't a right time for me to appear there because it's luch hour, so too many people squeeze into the cafe and I can't get any newspaper to read. So, I left once finish my food.

Then, while riding my bike,so suddenly, that I had made a wish, to watch 2 movies today. It's kind a waste, isn't it? Since normally we have only 3 wishes for birthday. Oh well, I don't want to make my life so complicated, simple suites me. I'm not going to tell all my wishes here although all of them are ordinary and simple. So, back to the movies. Both of them are quite new. The first movie is Surrogates. It is somehow disappointed me. I expect there would be alot of massive scene but not much of them. The second movie is Pandorum, it released today. I thought it is a horror movie but more to adventurous and science fiction. But both of them is above average for me, quite satisfied.

After that, I ever think of playing bowling. But it's quite late already. So, I went home, prepare for the dinner tonight. What very funny is, I was so insist to require crabs should appear on the table for dinner, and my sis was like =_=!!! lol...

Somehow, my behaviours made my friends worried. But that is my habit, I guess if you get used of it, you will understand. And, you know, I'm very busy, from what I stated above there. So, it isn't a right time to text me, very sorry for my irresponsive.

p/s My sis showed me that she wear B cup bra for dinner tonight. ^^

Greetings

Sometimes, I'm enjoy to ss especially when I am happy.

When I come back home the first thing I do is say "halo!!" to everyone in my sight including animals.

I used to greet the dogs, they always knew it, so each time I greet to them, they would swing their tail .

Besides dogs, I like to say hi miao mi to stray cats, fei hong and samseng. Sometimes they are like knowing I'm greeting to them and say meow to greet me too.

The funniest thing is I always shout " 嗨，大家好，我回来了!!!" to everyone once I step in the house, and acts like they are very excited to see me back, but in fact, they always ignore me and give me expression of =_=

自我介绍

姓名：林淑娟

星座：天枰座

排行：第二

血型：A

身高：152cm

体重：45kg

绰号：kian，kian mui，娟妹，老二，红苹果，strawberry，stacey

优点：有礼让的精神，幽默

缺点：懒惰，伤别人的心，浪子一个，不良少女，离家出走的人

喜爱的食物：海鲜，寿司，laksa，kfc，等等

喜爱的饮料：limau peng

喜爱的运动：篮球，排球，羽球，保龄球，游泳，爬山，跑步，等等

喜爱的活动：看漫画，打电动，上网，睡觉，漫无目的得到处晃，发白日梦，看电影

喜欢的水果：苹果，葡萄

喜欢的事：看我妹跳脱衣舞，和朋友到处晃

讨厌的食物：内脏，辣椒，零食，等等

讨厌的饮料：薏米，咖啡

讨厌的水果：梨，黄梨

讨厌的事：弄坏我的漫画，被骗，占我便宜

不爽的事：摸我的主机，推我的桌子，弄脏我刚清理的地方，在我做功课时一直盯着我

讨厌的事：驾车