金典回顾

最近，我迷上了林青霞的电影。我不断的搜寻她演过的电影，结果越看越过瘾，几乎把她的武打片都看的七七八八了，但我对她的爱情片倒是没兴趣。
武打片里的林青霞往往都能把角色演的很传神，该妖艳时，她比任何的女人还销魂，该有霸气时，她比任何的男人还要男人，是一个不管男人还是女人都会爱上的一个人。最具代表性的电影，莫过于笑傲江湖之东方不败风云再起，我可是看了至少三篇哪！！
哈哈，今晚肯定又要看她的电影了。。。

男人哭吧不是罪

一直以来，我都认为男人都是爱面子，爱逞强的动物。有时，我也在想会不会有例外？不过，事实证明，是没有例外的。
我非常讨厌那些明明没有能力的男生，却爱充着很厉害那样，到头来把事情搞砸了。我并不歧视软弱的男生，因为每个人都一定的弱点。勇于承认自己的弱点，比那些爱逞强的勇敢多了，可又有几个男生做得到？尤其是在女生面前，简直是禁忌。
也许我是女生的关系，我从来都不否认自己的无能的一面。但男生也可以做到的，就像刘德华唱的那样“男人哭吧不是罪”。

holiday

Finally!! the holiday start. This is the last holiday before I graduate, feel sooo.... reluctant. I went to Kuching last week. Oh well... nothing special there, as expected, if you insist, that would be Bako national park. OMG... the so called "waterfall" is like water fall from the water tap, really "WTF!!" we spend around 2 and half hour for trekking just to see the "water fall" from the water tap. Besides, the water is soo dirty that we can't even dare to wash our feet with the water, shit!!
Oh ya... I must mention about the famous bee hoon belacan. I almost vomit out the food I ate when I smelled it, too disgusting for me.
So far, I haven't plan for my holiday. These days, I grabbed my bro's PC to play game and force him to go sleeping or study. LOL... Looks bad but actually my intention is good, or else, he wouldn't think of study and I was too bored till I don't feel like online. In previous days, I was busy going out enjoy and seldom do my own businees. Now really need settle them, a huge "debt" for me but I feel very lazy to going out. sigh...
To all my friend: happy holiday!!

改变

最近，我感觉到我的生活起了很大的变化。我开始对生活有了新的诠释，也许是因为我爱看书的关系吧，看到很有意思的文章，让我开窍了很多。
我发觉我成熟了，开始懂得要对自己的生命负责任。别人不关心你，你就要好好疼自己，不要让自己受委屈。不开心了，就要想办法逗自己开心，不要让别人左右自己的情绪。尽量培养良好的习惯，让自己活得更有尊严。
我知道我的家庭给不到我需要的。但，我已经长大了，生命不再是我父母亲的责任，而是我自己的。记得有那么一句话“小的时候，你的错都是父母的责任。长大的时候，你的错都是你自己的责任。” 但很遗憾地说，我做不到我家庭对我的期待，或许这是我的缺陷，我弥补不了，请原谅我。
其实我也知道自己不断的在改变，每当有聚会时，以前的朋友总是对我的改变大吃一惊。没办法啊，社会不断的在淘汰跟不上脚步的人，我能那么单调吗？哈哈。。。开玩笑的 ：P 人成熟了，自然就会改变了，没必要特地伪装自己。
很快地，要毕业了 T_T ，超不舍得地，但为了我的“钱途”，还是毕业吧。。。没必要跟钱过不去。哈哈。。。 我承认我还是蛮现实地。（oops，被你们发现了）

lame club shirts

Feel free to leave any comments. These are not the final design. I might upload more if I able to design more.

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Somehow, I had gone wrong...

These days, so much of undesired matters happened in a blow.

Somehow, it made me went wrong... Almost...

Frustated.................

梦想

梦想，是不是因为遥不可及，才叫做“梦想”？
最近，我不断的想起深埋在心中的梦想。
我很想一一去实现它们，但，很无奈地，我背了太多的包袱。
诺不顾一切的去追求它们，我将要付出很大的代价。
就因为太了解自己的梦想，所以才显得那么的遥远。

我不但背了太多的包袱，还很懦弱，超没用地。
很多时候，遇到难题，都没能力去解决它。
长了那么大，都没有认真的思考自己的梦想。
这些日子，我真的是虚度了。

记得小时候，民都鲁来了一艘传道的邮轮，邮轮上有很多来自各国的自愿工作者随着邮轮漂泊。
就在那时，我的三姑就说了一句我忘不了的话：如果我年轻十岁，我一定也会参与他们。
我真的不希望，以后的我，也对我的侄女说同样的废话。
要么，就说"我曾经。。。"

最近
我深深的感觉到。。。
自己心中的梦想，渐渐的发芽了。
我在也按捺不住了！！

老天，给我勇气就好，
难题，留给我自己去解决吧！！

Somehow, I feel bored

Finally, this is it, free week!!
But I feel really bored. I had finished 1 drama in 3 days.
Actually I got a lot of things to do, but I AM LAZY.....
AAAHHH.......... WAT SHOULD I DO????

回我妈的娘家

一直以来，我都把去纳闽视为一件苦差。没办法，四面都是水，从飞机上望下去，一眼就看完了，非常的小。我又没车，那里又没电影院，商店的店面也小的可怜，跟本没得晃。

这次为了避难，又山长水远的去了一趟纳闽。我妈也不知何时变得这么有冒险精神，有飞机不坐。先是搭了两小时车到汶莱，接着等了四个钟头多，然后坐了一个半小时的快艇才到纳闽，结果我晕船了，一上岸就吐。各位，其实算到来，跟机票差不多，千万不要干傻事，弄得自己晕车又晕船。

这次回去，多事情都已改投画面。。。

先是我的阿公，高大的他竟然病得像非洲难民一样，除了上厕所，其余的时间都躺在床或懒椅上。也许是病了的关系，竟然看见我的阿姨们包括我妈和阿公谈天。我从来都没看过阿公和家里任何人说过话，就算有也是一两句而已。顺便一提，我阿公现在追着意难忘这部台语戏，还告诉我妈这部戏的剧情。

然后是我的舅舅，回去了那么多次，都看不到他出现在我面前超过一分钟。很难想象大家住在同一屋檐下，却没见面的那种情形吧。这次回去，他竟然会和我妈坐在一起吃饭，还聊天咧，也和我说了一些无关痛痒的话，真是奇迹。

接下来是我的表弟，他哦，十四岁了，变了声，还像个三岁小孩子。第一次见到他就见识了他的肮脏。那晚，他是刚从舞狮表演回来，脱了鞋和袜子，就走进房间。他的脚可是臭得可以杀死蟑螂，夸张到他走过的痕迹还残留着那股味道。我阿姨还告诉我，他昨晚表演回来没冲凉呢！！虽说，他才发育，思想不成熟，但不至于什么叫肮脏都不知道吧？真是的，连上个厕所也不关门，不拉水。他在家的时候一直盯着我的psp，算了，反正我回家也可以玩，就让他吧。

除此之外，我竟然看见了从来没见过的舅舅（另一个）。我每次问我妈到底她有多少个兄弟姐妹，她从来都没说出一个确实的数目。所以，时常会无缘无故冒出一个舅舅的感觉。那位舅舅竟然娶了和我妹年龄一样大的老婆。我阿姨们可是当没有这位嫂嫂的。

这次回去，我总算见识了福建人最传统的习俗--拜天公。还蛮讲究地。

虽然这次回去还蛮无聊地，但很吃惊他们的改变，变得比较像个家，希望他们每一个都可以平平安安的过日子。

A New Me

Happy chinese new year, everyone!!
Yesterday, I had my family reunion dinner at my aunt's house.
It was a christmas dinner rather than a reunion dinner. Amen!!
Every year, I come for peace, but they just don't let go of me. Poor me...

Listen to me everyone...

I thought I have a peaceful life after the training.

But, I have a lot of work that make me exhausted.

I think,

my days will only begins after the chinese new year.

This year,

I had made some wishes.

I am pretty unlucky.

But,

I will try my best to overcome it.

Wish myself all the best.

Don't jealous to me so much...

Stories in Shin Yang

Well... As you know, I'm doing my training in Shin Yang now. I'm going to tell what I had experienced in it.

First, my two seniors.
They are such a 38 person. Who take leave, when they take leave, the reasons they take leave (for marriage, balik kampung, for birthday....). Asked the seniors, they sure know the details. Besides that, who has boyfriend/girlfriend, who is married, who is single. They knew it.

For convenient to talk others affairs behind them, we gave them nicknames. Our manager is Ah Zhong, because he has Aron kwok's ealier ages hairstyle and give us a feel of onion. Then the supervisors... Su is Stress, because we always feels stress from her and her name has a "s" which has 3 in "stress". Yong is Nelson 2, they said he looks alike with Nelson. So he is no.2. Bel is "piao ge" or "Bel go". Sharizan will be the "tall man" (I believe you know why). And the newcomer, called baby, because she has baby face, very dependent to her parents and has "B" in her name.

Every Tuesday and Thursday is the day which we suffered the most because there is meeting. We need to tell our progress and what we had done. Tuesday sometimes are OK. The problem is Thursday, there are only two days between the meetings which sometimes not enough for us to do something else. So? we had nothing to tell during the meeting. That is the dilemma. We'll need to make some stories but it should be "true stories". How can we find that much of "true stories", in fact, we didn't do anything.

Ah Zhong is a very great person. He only brings a kettle of coffee and a cup during meeting. By just listening to your "full of chemical terms" speech, he knows what you are talking about. Don't ever try to fool him by speaking fast. He knows everything. I dare to say that he is the only one who know what you are talking about during meeting. Everyone wouldn't knew it.

My seniors like to whispering and talk fast. I seldom catch them and always coincidently ask "wat? wat? wat is it?" after they finished the stories, then, of course, they beh tahan me. So, they always let me sit between them to for my sake.

There were alot of stories I haven't tell. I don't think I can finish it here. lol...
I'm very glad to do my training with my seniors. They really help me alot and fun to be with them too. Thanks to them!!

请给我一些掌声

我知道

我永远比别人矮一截

我不比别人聪明

也不比别人跑得快

我只是一个再平凡不过的人

但

请给我一点掌声

虽然矮

我可以跳得比别人高

虽然笨

我可以比别人拥有更高的成就

虽然慢

我可以跑得比别人远

哪怕就那么一点

给我一些掌声

谢谢

我想念爸爸

我最爱的，是我爸，最畏惧的，也是我爸。

他很严格，只要一不听话，他就会变成可怕的怪物。而且他的脾气也非常的差，很容易就发怒。
虽然他重男轻女，但他还是最疼我的。

小时候，我一学会走路，就非常粘我爸。只要他一出门，我就是死也要跟去。我爸时常拿我没办法。一直到了上中学，我还是依然很爱跟着他，只是没那么执着。
记得我爸时常对我说，我是他的掌上明珠，是他的心肝宝贝。到了现在，每当想起我爸说的“掌上明珠”，我的心都会甜甜的。

每天早上，我爸都会很温柔的叫我起身，然后等我准备好，就会坐着他的老铁马，一起去吃早餐。眼睛不好的他，往往都会需要我在他耳边告诉他何时有车，何时没车。每一天，我们都去同一间咖啡店，喝同样的饮料，吃同样的食物。老板一见到我们，就自动把饮料送上。我的是柠檬茶冰，我爸受我的影响，他喝温的，我们都吃laksa，但它并不是每天都有，没有laksa的日子，我们吃豆腐杂。我爸怕我吃不饱，一直把好吃的往我的碗里放，我还要假装挑食，把食物放回他的碗。

每当我爸遇到朋友，他都会很自豪的说我长的很像他，遗传了他优良的特质。他不让别人欺负我，还告诉我：“如果你妈骂你，你就告诉我，我会骂回她，竟敢骂我的女儿。。。” 哈！我当然不会这么做啦。

周末的晚上，我会和我爸一起看很旧很旧的动作片，甚至WWF 啦，boxing什么的。还会一起讨论咧。

记得他去世的前几天，他称赞我很乖，知道我喜欢吃KFC，还说等他出院，会带我去吃KFC。 只是，他再也没有出来了。

爸，你知道吗？我很想你。