When I was small, I have a dream

When I was a child, I dreamed to be a scientist. Everyday, I tracked the small insects (ants, caterpillar, spider, grasshopper, dragonfly...) and observed their daily activities. On the other hand, I also liked to broke down the small devices to see how it function. Actually what I have done were stupid acts. I don't know why, maybe I am started to grow up, and realised it is kind a difficult for someone who are brainless like me to be a scientist. Then, it fades...

When I was a primary kid, I dreamed to be a doctor. I thought doctors can earn so much and it can make me looks "yeng" too. So I started to learn the ways to treat the wounds and pay attention to what related to doctor. After I grew older, I realised it is just a high standard blue collar job, which means, it cannot make me alot of money and it is a tough job. Besides, I would need to spent alot of money, time and efforts on it. Oh no, no no no, I am too lazy and lack of intelligence to do it. So, it is terminated...

Comes to the teenage, I dreamed to be a pharmacist. I always failed my biology in my semester test and only a pass for my SPM. But I don't want to give up so fast. So I decided to go for bio stream in STPM. The Bio class didn't even start, I changed my mind, and switched to physics stream. I also can't believe myself by being so random like this. Well, teenagers... just because we know nothing, so we dare to do any kind of "creative" and dangerous decisions. I switched to physics stream because I heard bio stream is too tough and had a lot of works to do. People who is lazy like me cannot survive in bio stream, so, I abandoned it...

Here comes to present, I am now aim to be an engineer. Before I came to Curtin, I know nothing about it at all. I choosed engineering course because everyone said it is suitable to me and can make me alot of $$. Besides, I prefer study science compared to commerce. Then, here I am. What I found something interesting is, most of the inventors I admired when I was a child are actually engineers. Quite suprise that my present ambition is very near to my chilhood dream. I really enjoy studying engineering especially chemical engineering because it can make me alot of $$$, so that I can "eat gao gao" and "play gao gao" at the future. Looking forward it...

普通的 VS 真正的

An email which I received:

一個普通的朋友從未看過你哭泣。

一個真正的朋友有雙肩讓你的淚水濕盡。

一個普通的朋友不知道你父母的姓氏。

一個真正的朋友有他們的電話在通訊錄上。

一個普通的朋友會帶瓶葡萄酒參加你的派對。

一個真正的朋友會早點來幫你準備並且為了幫你打掃而晚點走。

一個普通的朋友討厭你在他睡了後打來。

一個真正的朋友會問為什麼現在才打來。

一個普通的朋友找你談論你的困擾。

一個真正的朋友找你解決你的困擾。

一個普通的朋友對你的羅曼史感到好奇。

一個真正的朋友可以威脅你說出來。

一個普通的朋友在拜訪時，像一個客人一樣。

一個真正的朋友會打開冰箱自己拿東西。

一個普通的朋友在吵架後就認為友誼已經結束。

一個真正的朋友明白當你們還沒打過架就不叫真正的友誼。

一個普通的朋友期望你永遠在他身邊陪他。

一個真正的朋友期望他能永遠陪在你?

**Obviously, I'm a true friend, haha...**

起雾的日子

今天，天空很蓝，蓝的让人头痛。我的心情并没有因此晴朗，反而，蒙上一层层的雾。
打了几十通的电话寻找internship，一通都没有消息。算了，不打算在为它继续沮丧。反正，今年不行，明年再来。我相信老天爷是公平地，机会一定是躲在某个角落等着我，只是我还没找到它而已。
吃了一条choki choki，企图让自己的大脑释放一些胺多酚，让心情好一些。但，它的巧克力成分似乎不够，并没有多大的帮助。望着电脑荧幕，我又开始进行我的嗜好--发呆。
回想起以前，我是多么的佩服自己，不管遇到什么不开心的事情，我都能非常潇洒的放得一干二净。我的胸前可是时时刻刻都挂着“地球不会因为我而停止自转，我也不会因为这样而停下脚步，没什么事情是我放不下。”我从来都不为任何事感到难过，班上的同学也因此认为我超酷地。
随着年龄的增长，思想成熟了，拥有的也越来越多。很多事情都变得不简单，不能说放就放。朋友多了，肩膀多了，我靠惯了。我开始不舍得放，放了，我会难过。朋友不开心，我也好不了那里去，每做一件事情，诺没肩膀让我靠，我会开始觉得被压得透不过气来，也很寂寞。昔日的潇洒已不再出现。
是我软弱了？我没法衡量...

××掴自己俩巴掌，不要再胡思乱想了，是时候做assignment了！！